[He hates himself, for feeling a little relieved. Not Ned, not Abigail, not one of his few remaining friends. He thinks he could like Gary, if he could let himself, if he'd had the time. And no one - no one deserves whatever will happen. Blight - he doesn't care what happens to Blight. He has enough guilt already.]
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Not pity.
Grieve, a little.